feelings!!!!

this is after what we dreamt of achieving after coming here......frankly the feeling after the final placement has not been so special or it has not been the ultimate feeling to have. Even though one feels that the future is secure and professionally one has a decent stability, it puts the frame of mind to explore more about the personal relationship with the people. it happened with me too. crushes and attractions have always marked by life in a very interesting way. it has always helped me to have a better feel of life. after the debacle i had in the 1st year of my bachelors i am highly apprehensive in going one step further with someone. i have always limited my crushes and attractions to make me feel interested to work upon my self rather than to say something to them.

but, sometime one does not know what these feelings can do . caring for people close to me is the biggest thing i love to do. i hate letting go people around me and make a decent effort in having a long term establishment of everlasting relationship. i believe my valuation for relation comes from the fact that i lost someone so close and so early in my life . So , i do get possesive about certain people i admire and care for.
One thing in this world really interests me that how a compatibility is formed between certain people of different behavioral traits all together. how do people control themselves so as to accomodate other people. It is surely very exciting and yet can be painful for the people who are dominating by nature. life is really made up of lot of balances and God has taken a special care in making lot of traits which can balance out so many things automatically.
Another point which amazes me the fact that how does the nature changes when someone tries to get close to people. We have always seen that more care presented by a person for the other person results in anticipation from the other person to take things for granted. In those situations, the real worth of care and love is not felt by people who are the acceptor of this ultimate feeling. Its a seen fact that people by showing a intense interest in someone for a while and then deliberately they pull thier hands away leads the other person to feel the pinch and more often than not it works in favour of the person who started to get closer to the acceptor. the anticipation of recieving love and care all the time can make these people feel uncomfortable when they no longer recieve it. That is the beauty of life where one needs to be a bit manipulative and smart enough to make other person realize that you need to come to me now.

I have always wished that world can be a place where the feelings and emotions are shown bt the right people towards those people who understand and value their love. It feels bad for someone who gets some intense feelings for a person but the response is usually not appreciative. This can be hurting to anyone in the world and can let to lot of trouble for both the people.

Another thing which haunts me is the fact that people are so flexible with thier feelings for someone. they find some special, apporach them, convince about their love and suddenly after few days they realize that the feelings may not be that intense as it was earlier felt. This is again very agonizing for the person who has given everything to compliment the relationship