how the life has been!!!!!!!!!!

It all starts from 29th july 1985, when i was born. Since i was born after 16 years of my parents marriage, it added an extra responsibility to me to be seen as a sweet child as seen by my parents who would take care of them in every stage in old age . Been brainy as seen by my parents meant that i always had to perform decently in all the aspects of life.
My siblings were never ever bothered about anything to study. So i always had a decent excuse and example for me to never be serious about anything in my childhood life. All the time in my childhood i was busy in getting some notes photocopied for my siblings to make them study from the nearby intellegent students.
There has always been a situation that i have always got to meet people who have been elder to me, be it friends, be it people whom i went to play with or anyone to interact it. in my mind, i felt more maturer than what i was actually. I have lived in the locality where everyone was so close to each other as everyone lived there were staff of the hospital where my mother worked too. may be this has always made me to go out to talk to loads people make lasting and concerning relations.
Friends, Family members always played a pivotal role in my decision making uptil class 12th.
As a person, i was highly careless in understanding my priorities and always felt pressured with something or the other that made me underperform in lot of aspects. I had a casual attitude towards life where i took things so easy and believed they will get completed without a fuss.

My bachelor's has been the most interesting story of my life. I went to a village like place in punjab where met kind of people which i never thought i would ever gonna meet. Ialways found people who would a bit awkard to talk too. It was a fun to be out of my family boundaries and be free to explore the world with all the freedom.
I never knew that in this new life i ll find someone which will turn around my whole life up and down. To meet someome so sweet and loving was a charming and a majestic experience. To start falling for someone at that time was something great. My willingness to be completely lost in someone's thought was surprising and yet ever so enjoyable. my silliness from being so senti to wait for the call all the time or to stand in front of the gals hostel behind the bushes etc was ever so exciting.
Finally, happiness knocked my door wen i got the approval from my "wondergal". it was something out of the world to feel and smell. the Air felt so beautiful, the music was ever so soothing and the craze to go to college was ever so much. It was nice to see people stare at us sitting together since i felt i have achieved something which they have failed to do so. Studies at that time went for a toss.I joined a tution centre which was very close to her place and was half an hour from mine. i relished to be there all the time. there was always special air when i used to pass from a particular road near her hostel. it was something to be felt and not to be explained. Dinner at different outlets, strolling at different parks and of course holding hands made our relation very intense. writing something special was also a magnificent feeling since it brought out the heart for someone you love.
The life took a painful turn when suddenly everything was lost in a moment. before i could realize i had to believe that she is not there anymore. World was suddenly a hell to live. not only the pain of missing her was their but the mysterious circumstances which led to her departure created chaos in my already disturbed life. the threatenings , interrogation and wrong perception of the batchmates was something which i had to bear to finish my 3 more years in the college. some of the very close friends left talking to me since i was famous for wrong reasons and they ignored me to an extent that i stopped even expecting them to talk to me anymore. low feelings marked by such devastating instances was the order of my life. when all these things acted on me i had no option but to step out of the aunt's place after the 1st year so that i dont give my relatives even a single chance to pinpoint about my act. this decision to move into a paying guest was opposed by everyone in my family. They were under the notion that i may become a drug addict or someone taking wrong measures to come out of this turmoil. I somehow was able to convince my family to allow me to take this step.
Going to a P.G was an experience with all together different kind of people. smoking drinking and all the petty activities were the order of that place. since, my stress was unbearable i had a big inclination to go to that direction of calming effect for short stints. bt that stress brought out the best in me. I chose to study and focus on the academics more rather than anything else. i needed to answer a lot of people to justify my stance and show my character. . However, interrogations continued and so did the trauma continued for my family. my father used to come everytime i was called for interrogation and i used to weep and scold myself for being such a bad and hurting son who has put up my parents in such a terrible condition. i used to think what they expected of me and what i return i am giving to them. used to hate me for that. my mother used to cry for me and did constant paaths for my betterment, wen i used to get threatening calls from unknown people my parents spent sleepless nights thinking what can happen to me anytime since i was far away from them.
I always thought about a time when all this would be turning normal so that we can get back to our happy living life. my internal marks were badly given by my teachers and they belittled my father when he went in the college. that was something i can never forget. i connected with myself in a way that i decided come out of the things in high spirits. i scored decently in the term exam even though i got least internals. It was ever so satisfying that my mother had tears in her eyes for a happy reason after almost an eternity. i saw myself as a fighter who was trying to defy the odds and fight against all the voices and constraints.
The biggest turning point in my life came up when we went for the final placements interviews. when we went for infosys, i was not able to meet the requirments of their eligibility critirea so we were about the leave the college. however, the college called us back from their gate and asked us to give the exam. they said they may consider us if the eligible peolpe perfom badly in the exam. when the result came out of the exams, out of 32 people who gave the exam from my college , only 4 got selected for the final interview and i was one of them.it was a sense of contentment for me as the other people who ignored me actually congratulated me for the same. next day was the final interview, where i was able to deliver and achieve success.when my parents heard this i could feel them joyful and sounding victorious for what their son had achieved. i felt that the comeback is complete and i have proved everyone my strength of persevering against all the sitautions. i was one of the first person placed in my college. soon after that, i became the placement committee head and gained influence of the college proceedings.
All i can say is that incidents do occur, may be good or bad, how you take it ,how can you use it your strength or how can you move ahead by counter attacking the resistant forces acting upon you is in your hands. family support and belief in god were key for me to come out of it and perform above my potential. thats what i call a "Warrior"