Tough

it has been a phase to struggle and try to keep up with an ever smiling face even if things are not working for me. sometimes there is such a big stress on mind that thnigs arent working out properly and the other person is not showing any response of progression or rather there is a big signal that things are deliberately tried to be finished by the other person. Well when one knows all this and yet one has to keep a smiling face with big heart in front of the other person, it becomes a task of despair and anguish. eventually i realized that only this which can be achieved now is the other persons happiness which will come if there is less disturbance for her. when you feel this pain you need to make sure that you dont tell even a single trouble to the other person even if you are heavily burdened in this load. thats how life goes sometimes. I must thank god that this strength has been given to me now where in i can show a brave face ahead and hide all these things. Happy to write this since this is a great way of speaking out everything which was meant to be told to her. She is a fantastic person and does everything with her own style. I know its tough for her also that she is not been able to keep up this friendship thing also due to these feelings which have come in my mind. But, there is no issue now, i think i have god the blessing of almighty now to carry on with this and not express it again. I wish all the happiness for my little angel and hope she does not feel any pain which i am suffering now. If u like someone, you need to concede too. My relegion teaches me to sacrifice and i beleive i am on the right track to do that.