Indifferent

well its not so happy happy time as i feel sometime.my angel's behavior is though so generous it is sometimes so difficult to predict. Is it just humble or i what.. i Hope its not centric towrds her own beliefs and interest first.Unfortunately there have been lot of instances where this has been exhibited wherein i have played a catching game as a secondary person who is dancing to the tune of whatever my angel decides. But, i think its just because of my feelings for her rather her feeling anything for me .but, if i imagine this, i have come across such a situation where i was not having much feelings for the people, was i so less considerate!!! did i give pain to anyone by saying my mood is not good and i dont know the reason for that too.....its amazing how differently i have to act now where i dont show anything to her at all. i keep a happy face and try to feel light by writing it out or talking to my best frnds. slowly slowly i will start anticipating more and more despair if something super natural does not happen. i hope my angel realises this and at least tries to be a bit more heart feeling even like a good friend at least.... lets hope something happens for the better next day :)